We have been keeping a secret! I can’t believe I am about to type these words… I’m PREGNANT! Honestly, I never thought I would get to be a mom. I always thought my life journey was to be the fun aunt. I was good with that, so when I found I was pregnant. I was SHOCKED. I still haven’t wrapped my mind around that this is real life.
WARNING: I am sharing personal information next. Let’s back it up a bit and talk about our journey to this point. I got diagnosed with PCOS when I was 17 years old. It was confirmed again by my new doctor last year. I have never been regular in my whole life. I didn’t start my period until I was 16 years. When I finally did, they were very painful. The first year I only had two periods, the next year I only had 4. When my mother took me to see a lady doctor, I was tested and diagnosed with PCOS. It was recommended that I be put on birth control to help with my PCOS symptoms and in the hopes that if my body would get used to being regular that whenever I got off the pill. It would help my body stay regular, which didn’t happen by the way.
The pill really helped with my PCOS symptoms, and I was on it for almost 10 years. When I married Jeffrey, he knew that the possibility was very low for me to get pregnant, and yet he still wanted to marry me. I had made peace with the fact that I might never be a mom, and I was very OK with that. Jeffrey had wanted to start “trying” pretty on in our marriage, but I felt I wasn’t ready. I was 21 when we got married. I wanted to feel more settled in our marriage and in my career. So, we decided to wait until I felt more ready.
To be honest, I didn’t feel ready even when I decided to come off the pill. In January 2019, I decided not to get my prescription renewed. I was sort of ready, and honestly, I thought it would take a VERY long time for it to happen. My friends were starting to have babies. I felt more secure in our marriage, and my work life was 100% better. Jeffrey was also turning 31 at that point, and I had always told him maybe around your 30th birthday. Well, he had patiently given me more time. I do want to say that I NEVER felt any pressure from Jeffrey to have a baby. This was more pressure that I put on myself. I knew it was something he wanted, and I wanted to give it to him.
Coming off birth control was hard for me. All of my PCOS symptoms came back, which was hard to deal with. I put on about 15 pounds, which was even harder for me to deal with. But I knew that it would all be worth it in the end. The year flew by and I had only had one period in June. Therefore, I knew our chances were looking slim. I decided in August to finally try to lose some weight because my back was finally starting feel better. My coworker had recommended trying keto. I did that for the whole month of August, and maybe lost 5 pounds that I quickly put back on. She did mention that keto has been known to help regulate your hormones and several women had gotten pregnant while on keto. I just dismissed this, because my body had never reacted normally to anything in my life.
At the beginning of September my grandfather passed away. The next week Jeffrey and I headed down to Disney. I had gotten off Keto over the Labor Day holiday and during the funeral. So, I decided to start it back the day we left for Disney. I was nauseated and just felt horrible that whole day. I just thought I was going through the Keto flu (which is a real thing). However, the next day my chest started to hurt really bad while we were at Disney and didn’t get any better. I honestly thought I had picked up some sort of infection in the pool or something. I was also extremely nauseous on the rides, and roller coasters had never bothered me before. Of course, as any person does, I google my symptoms and pregnancy was the top one listed. So, when Jeffrey and I had to run out to CVS to pick up something we forgot, I picked up a test just to be sure. I was going to Universal the next day, and if I was pregnant, I didn’t want to ride roller coasters. I took the test and it came back negative. So, I just chalked it up to me getting older and fatter.
I continued to feel off for the rest of the trip, and on the way home I was exhausted to a level that I never felt before. When we got back, my symptoms get better. So, I thought maybe it was a phase, or I had been sick. A few weeks later, my symptoms started coming back. So, on September 29th, I randomly decide to take one of the 88-cent pregnancy test that I had purchased to randomly check to see if I was pregnant. I had purchased a bunch of them. Since I wasn’t being regular, and I would have no clue if I ever got pregnant. Therefore, I would randomnly take one just to check if I didn’t start my period that month.
I TRULY thought that it would be negative, but there it was a faint line. I FREAKED out. I had always had in my mind how I wanted to tell Jeffrey, but that just went out the window. I ran into the living room, and asked, “Is that line??” He said he thought it was. I ran immediately to take the one nicer test that I had. It too showed a faint line. I couldn’t believe it. We were both in shock. My mom was coming by to drop off my nephews for a bit, so we waited till they left to run to Walmart to get a digital test that says pregnant or not pregnant. That one clearly stated pregnant. We were in shock.
I called the doctor the next day to make an appointment, because I had no clue how far along, I was. I figured it had to be early. Since, I had taken a test a few weeks earlier and it was negative. I went to appointment, got the confirmation that I was pregnant and the due date of June 7th!
What made this extra special, was that I got pregnant the week my grandfather passed away. I then found out that I was pregnant on their wedding anniversary. I 100% feel like this was a gift from my grandfather up in heaven.
We are extremely excited to share our little secret with the world now! I can’t wait to see what 2020 will bring! P.S. There is just one. Please leave any mommy advice in the comments below. I will be sharing my first-trimester story soon, and how we shared the news with our loved ones shortly. So stayed tuned!